Thursday, February 11, 2010

smart and dumb at the same time

2/11/10 Thursday
It’s so hard to be both dumb and smart at the same time. That was one of my standing jokes about myself, that I am either the smartest dumb guy or the dumbest smart guy you will ever meet. It just depends on the moment you meet me. I’ve been struggling with how to burn a DVD with the widow’s financial information on it for what seems like hours. It’s so frustrating to have to struggle with what should be simple. I think I figured it out but will have to wait and see. The problem I know will come up is next time I’ll have to learn it all over again and will always have to unless I perform the task many times. Then it will stay in my memory.

Something else I’m wrestling with is what to do regarding a friend of ours who’s words have hurt and is apparently unaware of herself. Do I be honest and tell them? Honesty has caused so many problems before.

I’ll tell the truth and let the chips fall where they may. Meantime I’m having a hard time thinking and my ears are ringing. Not sure if the frustration of figuring out how to burn the DVD triggered this but I’m sure I have a headache and am worn out. That gets me too, how quickly I wear down. The person who said that I “Need to get a real job” seems blissfully ignorant of the difficulties I face despite knowing us. I guess she’s willfully ignorant instead of blissfully. That’s how lots of people are, they see things through their rose colored glasses and ignore what doesn’t fit their preconceived notions.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Anyone who believes working a ranch/farm doesn't qualify as a 'real job' has never worked a ranch/farm. You keep working your dream and know for every single person who ridicules your efforts there are 100 who cheer and support your efforts. MSgt Mike formerly of Midland, now of Loveland, CO

Bob said...

Mike, what a word of encouragement that is for me. Thank you very much, I really need it more times than I'd like to admit. MSgt? military or civil? No offense as I am unsure if they use such ranking in police, fire, or other fields. Regardless such a simple thing as "Hang in there" helps a lot.
bob

Anonymous said...

Retired US Air Force.

Bob said...

Dad was a fighter pilot and I was a crew chief on B-52's. Didn't adjust to military life well but in retrospect was glad I served.

Amy said...

farming is a REAL job, and a much harder, though often more satisfying one, than working 9-5 for someone else. I have a love/hate relationship with my "farming/homesteading". It depends on the day ;-)