Wednesday, December 26, 2007

A hard thing

12/26/07 Wednesday
I always know when a front has come through. The pain level in the bones of my neck and back was high enough to warrant a pain pill. It’s gotten quite cold since yesterday and the wind out of the north makes sure I know it when I step outside.

I got an Email from my oldest son, Bruce. He got married on the nineteenth. He labeled the Email “some late information”. For any of you unfamiliar with this area of my life Bruce and Adam were four and five years old when I married their mom. This was after my heartbreaking divorce from Cherie and something I just jumped into. The marriage was rocky to say the least and the best part of it was the opportunity I had to raise these two boys. I can’t say I did a good job but they turned out well. Adam is seriously learning disabled and last I heard still lives at his mom’s. Bruce has done two tours in Iraq and is a police officer in Lucas County. I am proud of them both. I have made many mistakes in my life but the greatest sadness of all is the lost relationship with them. It is a hard thing to fix, especially fifteen hundred miles away. The divorce from their mom was an ugly one and the principal cause of this. I signed the divorce papers on the day before the accident that put me in a coma. It was evidently a quick small wedding only decided on a month earlier and he says few were told so that is some consolation I guess. Still my heart longs to have been there, or at least close enough for him to have let me know. But a man reaps what he sows, so I accept the responsibility for that. Good luck Bruce, and God be with you.

I will try to not let this get me too down but I think a little mourning of this loss is appropriate. Time will help to heal the wounds and our relationship, at least I pray it will.
Hooray, I think. The U-joints are finally replaced. The last one has two different size ends which really threw the parts guy for a loop. After checking some more U-joints I wondered if we could put the ends from one on the other. It worked so the guy let me do that as an even exchange. Cool. It went right on without a problem and when I test drove it, it seemed to work just fine. Time will tell.


Sandy Kessler said...

cut through the muchk to only the good stuff

Bob said...

This is my journal, a record of the realities I deal with. Life isn't always a feel good thing so I won't dress it up.